Recently on twitter I saw a saying by Joyce Myer that really spoke to me about what is controlling people. She stated “Are you controlled by what is around you, or by Jesus, who lives inside you?” This made me think in my own life what is controlling me and my emotions. In the past year I have been going through some really bad times.
This past year I was diagnosed with Inter-cranial Hypertension. This is a condition where there is increased fluid build up on the brain and as a result the person gets really debilitating headaches, vision problems, vomiting and ringing in the ears among other symptoms. In July I underwent brain surgery to implant a shunt into my brain to help drain the fluid off. That helped for several months but now I find the symptoms have come back and I am facing many tests and possibly another surgery.
This has opened the door for me to become very uneasy and have had trouble sleeping as well as just a not so peaceful spirit. So today as I read Joyce Myer’s twitter post I had to think to myself what in the world is controlling me. Is it the peace of Jesus that lives in me or am I allowing this life circumstance to come and take over my life and keep me from the complete joy that Jesus has for me. It is my prayer that as I move along in this time in my life that I let the one how has the peace that passes all understanding give me the joy that can overflow in my life to others.
